LIFE IS NOT ABOUT US,IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU.

  Life to me is a JOURNEY,you never know what may be your next DESTINATION. At a very young age I felt fortunate because my parents introduced me to GOD. I became active at church and that made my life so blessed,having Him is the best gift that I will ever have. Because of that I never felt alone though many circumstances and trials knocks on my door.

I didn't grew in a family that has been together. When I was born I didn't awaken with a complete family. I am the only girl and also the youngest of my family I considered that as one of the reason why we are not close to each other,also because the gaps of our age are so far to one another. When I was a child I am loved by my parents and they show so much care to me but as time goes by I can really feel and see that we are loosing touch to each other. At first,it made me feel so sad but I became used to it. At the age of 11,also the time when I became cold to God,I never attended church anymore. At that moment I learned to fight,disobey,disrespect and have no care to my parents. It seems that we cannot understand each other. Everyday my Mom and I are always fighting we hurt each other both physically and emotionally. When it comes to my brothers, I don't want the way they treated me because they always hurt me,they always hurt me physically. :| I learned to stand on my own and believe in myself cause I felt like I'm the only one in this world and I don't have someone to rely on. I look at my father like he is the reason for everything that is happening. I always made him feel that he is irresponsible. I feel pity for them because I know that every parent dreamt of a family that is filled with love but I failed them,I also feel pity for my self because I thought that God didn't provide a good parents for me. 

I seek all the love that I am looking for to my FRIENDS,they are what I called the real blessings that's worth treasured. They are the one who lets me to have a total freedom to be myself.

 I always spend time with them and loved being beside them opposite to what I am feeling whenever I'm on our house,I feel like they are always dragging me to hell. For me everything they do are really annoying.  I believed that to an adolescent,there is nothing in the world more embarrassing to a PARENT. When I entered HIGH SCHOOL, I learned a LOT of things with my friends we learned to say bad words and always acts something that were not pleasing to God but we didn't care and still enjoying life. But fortunately it all changed, when I was 14 yet the problem with my family remain. At that age my relationship status with God started all over again with the help of my newly arrived cousin.

  God made her such a GREAT BLESSING in my life.I changed a lot because of her. 

I went back to church and became involved with some groups to deepen my knowledge about Him. I realized that whenever I'm hurting my parents I also do the same way to God but

 I cant stop but to talk back with them when they  yell at me .

 

PATIENCE,DETERMINATION and COURAGE are the only things needed to improve any situation. Whenever we feel pain don't use it to drive us away from Him,instead use it to draw us near to Him. I'm still hoping that there will be a perfect time that our treatment with my family will be okay though I'm already losing my hope. Let GOD be the center of our LIVES. I still believe by the power of our Sovereign God to change things according to His will. HE NEVER FAILED TO AMAZE ME ON HOW HE DREW MY LIFE. 

-LUCILLE BUENAVISTA